As I’ve written before I’m sure, Thanksgiving was my dad’s favorite holiday. He loved turkey! My dad was not one to get too excited about food normally, so it was a big deal to watch him devour slice after slice of turkey.
While I can still recall those fond family memories, they are unfortunately overshadowed by that Thanksgiving three years ago. Dad was in the ICU, clinging to life. I was trying to figure out when I should fly out, because I was working the entire holiday weekend. The nurse said he could pass in two hours or two months, there was no telling. As soon as I arrived to work on Black Friday 2011, I received the call from a nurse, frantically asking me if they should pull the plug on my dad’s life support.
I’m now back working in the same newsroom I was that day when I received that terrible call. Every now and then I’ll glance to that corner of the room and remember the pacing I did that day three years ago, trying my best not to completely freak out from the stress. I’m once again working the holiday, but from home this time. Thankfully I won’t have to mark the anniversary of those painful memories at the office.
So Thanksgiving is bittersweet for me. I still enjoy the food and try to focus on the happy memories. Life, and death, does not pause for holidays.
I hope somehow, somewhere, Dad is enjoying a few big slices of turkey.
2 responses to “Bittersweet holiday”
I lost mom Thanksgiving too. And today I sit in the chair in dad’s room watching him nap. We aren’t doing anything festive, just sitting together for awhile. It is cold and snowy and the restaurants we like are closed for the holiday. It is like just another day for us today, but we are together. He has been snozing through more visits lately, but isn’t sick, just “resting”. He will get up for turkey in the dining room in awhile.
Holidays are full of memories. We need to remember the happy times when things feel sad, Happy times will come again. Blessings to you on this Thanksgiving Day.
So true, we must focus on our blessings. Thank you for sharing. I’m glad you were able to spend the holiday with your dad.