It was part of my job to follow Nancy Reagan’s funeral on Friday. But it was also a lesson on grace, grief and choosing love at the right moment.
The fact that daughter Patti Davis and Nancy Reagan had a difficult relationship is well known. It has been written about and documented in numerous books and interviews by Davis and Reagan as well as political pundits and gossip columnists.
Imagine the pressure you would feel when asked to speak at the funeral of a relative who you had a love/hate relationship with, a funeral that was being broadcast to millions of people across the nation.
Oh sure, Patti Davis has led a life of privilege, but money and power doesn’t guarantee happiness.
Davis recounted a humorous prank that Nancy played on Ronald, a moment she relived with her mother in the days before her death. After telling the story, Davis said at the time she didn’t realize that would be the last time she would hear her mother laugh.
That really struck a personal chord with me, because I also think back to the last time my mother laughed and made me laugh. I can remember the moment in great detail. It was the day we started her morphine, finally, after battling the doctor and home hospice for more pain relief. A few doses in, Mom woke up for a nap and wanted to get up. I helped her out of bed and asked her how she was feeling, looking for any signs of the common side effects, such as nausea or dizziness.
Mom grabbed the puke bucket that I had placed on the bed in preparation for any such issues, and placed it on her head (yes, it was empty.) She then danced a little jig.
It was the only time that entire last month of my mother’s life that I genuinely laughed.
An hour or two later, Mom was vomiting into the bucket.
But back to Davis. She didn’t ignore the difficult relationship she had with her mother, saying that there were never any shades of grey in their relationship, but instead bright colors and passionate emotions. She took responsibility for her actions while not exonerating her mother, as death does not wipe clean a person’s past transgressions.
On Friday though, Davis chose love, and she did so with grace and humor.
One response to “Finding grace amidst grief”
Wow. You are so right. That was a lovely eulogy. It moved my heart. I can imagine how hard it must’ve been for you to cover the story after recently losing your mom.
I’ve often wondered about the relationship between the Reagans’ and their children. I wondered if they’d ever mended the wounds. It was good to hear that it seems they did.
I haven’t always gotten along with my parents. There has been a lot of contention over the years, but as I’ve grown, I’ve looked into my own soul to find where I could be contributing to the problems. It helped immensely. We aren’t perfect, but I’ve learned to figure out ways around their shortcomings and just deal with them. I know now that we’ll have a healed goodbye.
Thanks for sharing this.