Wishing you and your family a holiday filled with love.
For those of us grieving the loss of a loved one this holiday season, may you find some sense of peace and solace in honoring your loved one’s memory in a way that is meaningful to you. For me, that is looking at photos from my childhood. I created a virtual snow globe featuring a photo of my parents at Christmas.
Remember the caregivers in your life, and if possible, offer to pick up a task so that they don’t feel overwhelmed this holiday season and can carve out a bit of self-care time. Respite care comes in many forms.
Need a last-minute gift? E-books make a great gift. Smashwords is running the 2025 End of Year Sale through Jan. 1. You can get the e-book version of my award-winning personal essay collection, The Reluctant Caregiver, for half-off.
Today marks 14 years since my father’s death. The events of that day in 2011 and receiving the call that every family member dreads is so sharply engraved in my memory that it’s difficult to believe so much times has passed. Yet my own life and the world has transformed so much that it’s equally as difficult to believe all of these changes have occurred in the last 14 years. Grief processing tends to warp the time element.
For those of you experiencing grief during the holidays, thisWhat’s Your Grief? resource posted by Happy Healthy Caregiver in a recent newsletter may be helpful. It offers 64 tips on how to manage grief and honor the memories of departed loved ones during the holiday season.
Finally, I want to express gratitude for those who read this blog. The Memories Project was born in the immediate aftermath of my father’s death. I’m grateful to the caregiver blogging community for their support and sharing their own caregiving journeys. The blog led to personal essays and then my award-winning book, The Reluctant Caregiver. For those grieving this holiday season, consider a creative outlet to process those complex emotions. Most of all, give yourself the space to simply be with your emotions.
The holidays can usher in a mix of loving family moments and caregiver burnout. I read an article by psychotherapist Mike Verano on Today’s Caregiver in which he named the common caregiver condition of feeling both exhausted and restless at the same time as “exhaustlessness.” It’s an accurate term for two emotions that seem on the surface an unlikely combination until you experience what Verano calls the “emotional hurricane” of caregiving.
I definitely can relate to being completely exhausted but also being overwhelmed with a restless energy due to being hypervigilant. Verano refers to the physical sensation as being “like taking a sleeping pill and an energy drink at the same time.” Exactly! Caregivers know that they have a limited window for sleep and self-care, but at the same time, they can’t shut off their brains from going through to-do lists.
Even after a caregiving situation ends, it can take quite awhile to disconnect oneself from that hyper-aware state of monitoring. It can feel that something is missing if you are not constantly looking for problems to arise and fix. Being gentle and patient with oneself during such transition periods is essential.
For those feeling “exhaustlessness” due to their current caregiver situation, the holidays can be a good time to discuss the need for more support while family members are gathered together. Talking to a mental health professional, one trained in family caregiver dynamics, can also be helpful in learning how to establish boundaries, so that you don’t always feel like you are caught up in an emotional storm.
Each year I consider a wide range of useful gifts for caregivers, everything from books to high-tech gadgets. No matter how amazing a gift is, I’ll always believe that personal time away from caregiving duties is the most precious gift of all. Respite comes in many forms, and can be as simple as an afternoon off to engage in self-care. For the family caregivers on your gift list this holiday season, think about how you can give them a bit of personal time back.
The good news is that in a year in which many are struggling financially, giving someone else time need not cost money, but only sacrificing some of your time. Offer to sit with a loved one to free up time for the caregiver. Volunteer to assist with a time-consuming task, like grocery shopping or making meals. Cleaning the house or tackling household repairs are other ways to give the gift of time.
Here are some other thoughtful gift ideas for caregivers:
Joe & Bella: Dressing can become a time-consuming challenge for those with dementia. I love the line of adaptive clothing from Joe & Bella, which looks nice and includes clever additions, like magnetic closures and CareZips to save time and reduce frustration.
Happy Healthy Caregiver: Check out the digital gifts, such as a self-care journal and for something with a personal touch, create a Caregiver Jar filled with affirming and inspiring quotes.
Alzheimer’s Association Gift Guide: Thoughtful gift ideas for caregivers and people living with dementia. I like that the guide offers suggestions at different stages of the disease.
Of course, I will take a moment to recommend my book. Beginning Monday Dec. 8 through Jan. 1, Smashwords is running the 2025 End of Year Sale. You can get the e-book version of my award-winning personal essay collection, The Reluctant Caregiver, for half-off.
I was attending an event this weekend where we were talking about grief and gratitude. It’s an appropriate topic for November as we quickly approach Thanksgiving where we are reminded to be grateful for our blessings.
But when one is going through difficult times or actively grieving, tapping into gratitude can feel impossible. A person at the event I attended suggested that the bigger and deeper the grief, aiming to engage in smaller moments of gratitude can feel more achievable and still have a significant impact. The last thing one should do is force themselves to be grateful, because authenticity is essential. The last thing someone who is grieving should do is feel guilty because they cannot muster feelings of gratitude.
What can be helpful is taking time to be present in the moment. Recognizing the complexity of the more negative emotions and understanding that grief’s depth mirrors the bond you had with what is gone. Those relationships that were complicated may trigger even a deeper mix of emotions. Honoring those feelings over time can slowly make space for other feelings to emerge, such as gratitude.
It can also help to focus on something outside of your current situation. I find nature to be one of the simplest and most satisfying ways to ground oneself in a moment of gratitude. Being of awe of the stars in the night sky, a gorgeous sunrise, the colors of the leaves in autumn — these simple moments of gratitude have helped chip away at the oppressive grief I have felt at times during the holiday season.
Hope these tips help if you are navigating grief this holiday season.
I’ve been out of the country to attend and speak at News Reach Con, a conference for those in the news SEO industry. In Germany where I was, celebrating Halloween is growing some in popularity but not to the same level as in the US. As I’ve written many times on this blog, I’ve always enjoyed Halloween and have mostly fond memories of celebrating the holiday as a child. Halloween also makes me think of how my father took on a neighborhood bully who had been mean to me at a community gathering, which I write about in The Reluctant Caregiver.
While at the conference, one of the speakers, Louisa Frahm, was wearing a fabulous “Elvira Mistress of the Dark” dress. We chatted about growing up with Elvira and how as children, the racy innuendos flew right over our heads as we just enjoyed the costumes and silly movies. I credit Elvira with inspiring my love of cheesy B-horror movies, something that I continue to enjoy to this day.
Zoom in to see Louisa’s fabulous Elvira dress! Photo by Markus Mielek.
I hope your Halloween brings more treats than tricks.
Halloween animation generated by Google Flow AI with Veo.
Posing with the bears outside of the Ruidoso Public Library, 2004.
My father died 13 years ago today. Having spent time recently going through the final batch of my father’s possessions, I feel his spirit even closer this year.
I didn’t have down time while I was cleaning out my parents’ condo, so I got up extra early on the day I was leaving to visit the library. I took a photo with one of the bear statues. It was too early for the library to be open but I was glad I squeezed in the time to take in the sights and sounds of nature along the picturesque walking trail to the library, as my father did so many times.
Posing with the bears again, Nov. 2024.
It was my father’s favorite spot. He spent countless hours there, and even as his dementia progressed and his reading skills diminished, he still made his way to the library out of habit.
I don’t visit libraries myself anymore, having adopted the convenience of e-books, but as I mentioned in my last blog post, libraries will always hold a special place in my heart.
Even though it’s been well over a decade since my father’s passing, marking the somber anniversary still does have an impact on my holiday spirit. For those who have experienced loss during the holiday season, allow yourself the space and self-compassion to adjust expectations.
Reflection and remembrance can take many forms, and your preferences may change over time. Be authentic and don’t try to force emotions.
I know this can be easier said than done when it comes to demands from others, who may not appreciate the complexities and individuality of the grieving process. My wish for you this holiday season is that others will be supportive and understanding.
On December 20, I will mark the 12th anniversary of my father’s death. Losing a loved one during the holiday season can usher in a mix of grief and nostalgia during subsequent holidays. There’s also a group of people who are marking their first holiday after the passing of their loved one.
Each person processes grief differently, and each person will have to decide what feels right when marking the holidays without their loved one. Over time, I’ve found the sharp pangs of recent loss wane some, replaced by a more generalized sadness.
Care Dimensions posted a helpful list of suggestions on how to remember a departed loved one during the holidays. I have found playing their favorite music or watching their favorite films can be a positive way to connect with those who have passed. I also like to light a candle and set aside dedicated time to recognize departed loved ones in the memorial areas I have both inside my home and in my garden.
You can read more about how I dealt with grief in my award-winning personal essay collection, The Reluctant Caregiver. You can get a digital copy for just 99 cents if you purchase through the Smashwords 2023 End of Year Sale.
This holiday season, one of the best gifts you can give the caregivers in your life as well as those nearing the end of their lives is the space and attention to have difficult conversations.
This includes not only end-of-life conversations but challenging family situations that need to be addressed. Perhaps there’s a caregiver in your family or friend circles that could use more support. If we’ve learned anything over the last few years of tremendous loss of life from the pandemic, it’s that we may not have the time we think to work through difficult issues with our loved ones. Now is the time to be proactive.
I was reminded of this while watching the Peacock TV series, “The Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning.” This isn’t normally the type of show I would watch but in episode 2, a woman with terminal cancer is featured. In fact, the woman was quite organized and she didn’t need that much help in downsizing. Beyond practical matters, she was dealing with challenges connecting with loved ones as she neared the end of her life. As one of the death cleaners proclaims, she needs “death cleaning of her soul,” which is an empowering concept that they help her fulfill.
Can you facilitate that process for yourself or someone dear in your life? What a meaningful holiday gift that would be.
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